I Would Like ... yet again

Though I've posted this poem before in this blog, I never get tired of reading it ... over and over again.  It is the one poem that I wish I could have written because it lives in my heart.  But Yevgeniy Yevtushenko wrote it first and it is far better than anything I could ever hope to write.  But it lives in me so that's something.  Again here it is in his own translation.

 I would like

            to be born

                      in every country,

have a passport

               for them all

to throw

        all foreign offices

                           into panic,

be every fish

             in every ocean

and every dog

             in the streets of the world.

I don’t want to bow down

                        before any idols

or play at being

                a Russian Orthodox church hippie,

but I would like to plunge

                          deep into Lake Baikal

and surface snorting

                    somewhere,

                              why not in the Mississippi?

In my damned beloved universe

                             I would like

to be a lonely weed,

                    but not a delicate Narcissus

kissing his own mug

                   in the mirror.

I would like to be

                  any of God’s creatures

right down to the last mangy hyena--

but never a tyrant

                  or even the cat of a tyrant.

I would like to be

                  reincarnated as a man

                                       in any image:

a victim of prison tortures,

a homeless child in the slums of Hong Kong,

a living skeleton in Bangladesh,

a holy beggar in Tibet,

a black in Cape Town,

but never

         in the image of Rambo.

The only people whom I hate

                           are the hypocrites--

pickled hyenas

              in heavy syrup.

I would like to lie

                   under the knives of all the surgeons in the world,

be hunchbacked, blind,

                      suffer all kinds of diseases,

                                                   wounds and scars,

be a victim of war,

                   or a sweeper of cigarette butts,

just so a filthy microbe of superiority

                                       doesn’t creep inside.

I would not like to be in the elite,

nor, of course,

               in the cowardly herd,

nor be a guard dog of that herd,

nor a shepherd,

               sheltered by that herd.

And I would like happiness,

                           but not at the expense of the unhappy,

and I would like freedom,

                         but not at the expense of the unfree.

I would like to love

                    all the women in the world,

and I would like to be a woman, too--

                                     just once...

Men have been diminished

                        by Mother Nature.

Why couldn’t we give motherhood

                               to men?

If an innocent child

                    stirred

                           below his heart,

man would probably

                  not be so cruel.

I would like to be man’s daily bread--

say,

    a cup of rice

                 for a Vietnamese woman in mourning,

cheap wine

          in a Neapolitan workers’ trattoria,

or a tiny tube of cheese

                        in orbit round the moon.

Let them eat me,

                let them drink me,

only let my death

                 be of some use.

I would like to belong to all times,

                                    shock all history so much

that it would be amazed

                       what a smart aleck I was.

I would like to bring Nefertiti

                               to Pushkin in a troika.

I would like to increase

                        the space of a moment

                                             a hundredfold,

so that in the same moment

                          I could drink vodka with fishermen in Siberia

and sit together with Homer,

                            Dante,

                                  Shakespeare,

                                              and Tolstoy,

drinking anything,

                  except, of course,

                                    Coca-Cola,

--dance to the tom-toms in the Congo,

--strike at Renault,

--chase a ball with Brazilian boys

                                  at Copacabana Beach.

I would like to know every language,

                                like the secret waters under the earth,

and do all kinds of work at once.

                                 I would make sure

that one Yevtushenko was merely a poet,

                                 the second--an underground fighter

                                                             somewhere,

I couldn’t say where

                    for security reasons,

the third--a student at Berkeley,

                                 the fourth--a jolly Georgian drinker,

and the fifth--

               maybe a teacher of Eskimo children in Alaska,

the sixth--

       a young president,

                    somewhere, say, modestly speaking, in Sierra Leone,

the seventh--

             would still be shaking a rattle in his stroller,

and the tenth...

                the hundredth...

                                the millionth...

For me it’s not enough to be myself,

                                    let me be everyone!

Every creature

              usually has a double,

but God was stingy

                  with the carbon paper,

and in his Paradise Publishing Corporation

                                          made a unique copy of me.

But I shall muddle up

                     all God’s cards--

                                      I shall confound God!

I shall be in a thousand copies to the end of my days,

so that the earth buzzes with me,

                                 and computers go berserk

in the world census of me.

I would like to fight on all your barricades,

                                             humanity,

dying each night

                like an exhausted moon,

and resurrecting each morning

                             like a newborn sun,

with an immortal soft spot--fontanel--

                                      on my head.

And when I die,

               a smart-aleck Siberian Francois Villon,

do not lay me in the earth

                          of France

                                   or Italy,

but in our Russian, Siberian earth,

                                   on a still-green hill,

where I first felt

                  that I was

                            everyone.

Homeless with a Laptop, That is my Name

Bridges of Dreams

And will this also pass?

Perhaps, but know what will stay?

What we decide to take

from gifts given to us.

We lived each own the way,

We move in different pace.

And nothing could be read

before we linked in space.

Some could speculate:

It all belongs to the sky,

But how to comprehend

and answer question, Why?

And will this also pass?

Perhaps, you know life is long,

But why this even struck us?

The question comes along.

By Gulnara Karimova

I can see you standing in the woods by moonlight. The warm glow of a small campfire suffuses your face, gilding your gentle smile and sparkling in your eyes. The clean scent of your hair fills my nostrils as I nuzzle your neck and wrap my arms around your waist. There I look up and see the moonlight transform your hair into a silver aureole as our bodies move in an ancient rhythm. The rustle of leaves is lost in the roar of the wind through the treetops above us.

Where are our dreams?

What are they?

Oh, and if dreams are slipping away in dreams?

What are finding themselves having to star?

The sun rises, and the shadow fades away.

the light is on the way, smoothly hides dreams ...

And once again everything touches the soul,

live your dreams and will fly up to dream ...

By Gulnara Karimova

I can see you on the deck of a ship passing mine. Our eyes lock, we reach out as if to bridge the gap with our arms. Sadly we wave good bye. My heart aches as your ship drifts off into the dusk. Just as you fade away you smile at me. I can see the wistful sadness clearly on your lips, as if I have seen it many times before. Why does that image spring so readily to mind? Am I doomed to live among the things that can never be?

Came Up With ... a dream wrapped ...

Believe ... a sigh.

I don't know how long is this twinkle ... one more ...

By Gulnara Karimova

I sit by a pond and gaze across the water at reflections of memories of things that never were. I hear echoes of footsteps along a path not taken, and wonder where I might have gone. I dream of you appearing in the dark and walking into my arms. I remember … and I dream that it would never end.

We are one, eternity was ...

in broad parts scattered and thee revealed ...

By Gulnara Karimova

Sometime back I read that the composite color of the universe is – beige or tan. The scientific explanation is that over the past 10 billion years the universe is becoming redder as red stars have become more prevalent—an understandable observation since red stars are older than blue stars.

To me, a beige universe somehow explains many things… Avatar, Dances with Wolves, The Last Samurai, The Blue Man Group for President 2016… an inchoate desire to return to a more bluish universe

Fairies beckon the Moon,

Eternal for ever in heaven.

will life be replaced again and again,

But the Earth will rule love ...

By Gulnara Karimova

Rise above me like a majestic bird.

Spread your golden wings and fly,

soaring high into the mist.

Abandon yourself

 and all that has become you.

Take me with you

to that place most perfect.

That place between this life and the next

where for one single instant

knowing love is the only option.

by G. Gregory

by Homeless with a Laptop, That is my Name

      Бездомные с ноутбуком, это мое имя

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